Hi, my name is Cecilia. Last year, specifically in September, I graduated from college. The same month, I made the decision to return home. Was I scared about this decision? Of course. Is it ever easy to leave my comfort zone? I found myself torn between maintaining stability and choosing change. Truthfully, I often struggle to make decisions or take on challenges. Why? Because I’ve been hurt by the weight of choices I’ve made, and the fear of failure lingers over me, like a shadow.
The first few days back at home were strange. The routine was familiar, yet everything felt different. I was in a new environment, but doing the same things. I always sleep past midnight, wake up after 10 AM, scroll through Instagram, and see all my friends already busy with their work. I eat at random times, my days are filled with other boring activities like binge-watching shows/films, staying in bed for hours, and procrastinating. It made me feel stagnant and, like many people my age (Gen Z), I started to question my worth (I was jobless). I felt like I was just going through the motions, not really achieving anything.
I couldn’t help but wonder: “What am I doing with my life?”
But then I remembered that every adventure, no matter how small, is still an adventure. The act of moving, of not staying stuck in one place, is a privilege.
Even when it feels like the path ahead is already set for me, half of it is shaped by my choices and the people around me.
I tend to get bored easily and, I’ll admit, I love hopping from one thing to another. I wanted to challenge myself, how quickly could I adapt to this world that feels so fast-paced and overwhelming? At first, I resisted, but soon I realized that trying new things, even those I wasn’t sure about, only expanded my horizons.
Over time, I began to see things differently. Despite the uncertainty and the fears that once felt paralyzing, I realized that I wasn’t as unprepared as I thought. Life wasn’t as overwhelming as it seemed. Yes, I felt lost at first, but I also noticed the small victories. I stayed connected with my friends online, met up with those nearby, went to a concert, started learning to cook, participating as a crew member of film festival, and even indulged in childhood memories by buying a toy. These small activities kept me engaged and physically active, reminding me that I didn’t have to stay stuck in my worries.
Now, when tomorrow comes, I find myself welcoming whatever new opportunity it brings. I’m no longer waiting for something big to change my life. Instead, I understand that life moves forward, little by little. There’s always room to grow, to dream, and to live fully in the present. And even though the world feels unpredictable, I’ve come to believe that sometimes the simple choices to move can be the one that leads to growth.
